永远

想你了

至今的你，在做什么呢？
曾经很有信心地以为你会想我。
可是，时间过了，日子慢慢过，我就知道你一定忘记了我，也没想我。
我很笨，地去相信你。相信一天你会喜欢上我，爱上我。
原来是自己的一厢情愿。
很想去相信这一切是真的，很想去相信这一切是我的。
很想喜欢你，很想和你在一起，很想和你一起笑，
很想很想爱你。
明知道这一切都不可能，明知道这一切是假象的，
可是我却选择去相信你，相信自己，相信这段爱情，这段我们所发生的一切。
我很努力地忙自己，很努力地不去想你。
真的很努力地不去爱你。
你的脸，你的额头，你的眼睛，你的鼻子，你的轮廓，你的嘴唇，是那么的吸引我。
曾经捉住我的手，曾经十指紧扣的手指，曾经对我说的每一句话，
有那么多的曾经，那么多的曾经。
对你的冲动，我根本没忘记过。
每一首歌，每一个动作，每一个地方，每一个景色，都让我想起你。
我恨为什么我不能忘记你。
我恨我自己爱你。
虽然说了没关系，我会习惯的。可是这习惯能持续多久呢？
一年？两年？三年？
眼泪为什么那么地不听话，为何说到你的名字或听到你的名字，都会不禁地留下來。
笑了，伤了，哭了，累了，无奈了，想你了，应该停止了。
不舍，不要，不想要，可以吗？
很痛，真的很痛。

Insanely addictive.

This is insanely addictive.*

Well, what is it so crazily addictive?
I will say, it's love.
Isn't love make you go crazy when you're in love?
Isn't love make your world go round when you're happy?
Isn't love make you the happiest person on earth like you never had before?
Isn't love make you do stupid things that you obviously don't know why you did it?
Isn't love gives you hope?

The hope that we cherish it and we don't ever want to see it fade away.

Because it's so precious and it hurts to let go.

So,we chose to hold onto this hope,hope that someday,someone or something good will happen.

At least we have a leap of faith on it.

*

You came into my life long long time ago.

With the help of God, we met each other again. 

This meeting, I would say, it's our first and it's our last.

I would never ever ever forget the marvelous moments together.

You made me feel alive,like I have loose myself completely in your arms. 

I wish the time could stop for awhile and let me mesmerize by your charms a little bit longer.

I close my eyes and I see you. 

How I wish I could turn back the time to where we were.

How I wish you're still the same.

How I wish you're still here.

How I wish…

But,all these are bullshits,

You won't come back anymore.

You are gone..

We've changed, to a different person.

Deep down, I know I still care.

I know I do still think about you somewhere in my heart, in my soul.

I know I should've let you go..

I still can't..

*

Because I'm still holding onto a little hope, a little faith on you. 

Trying not to think about you,

Trying not to remember the things we shared,

the times we had,

the bonds that are so strong,

the stories we talked about every time we see each other,

the complaints you made,

the little secrets you told me,

the little gossips,

the dreams you want to achieve,

the things that you want to do,

the impossibilities,

the crazy little things,

the smile,

the spell,

the charms,

the you.

I hold myself from finding you, hoping that you will find me.

I'm always there for you,but you're not there when I needed you.

I hold myself back from loving you.

How I wish you would know what I'm feeling right now for you. 

I miss everything about you.*

ALIVE 2013!

Well, hey guys. It's been months since I post something. That was like, what? 5 months ago.
There are so many things happened within this 5 months.
1 post might sum up everything, perhaps. I hope so. (maybe not)
ANYWAY!
I finally done my STPM Examinations. (gosh, that was long time ago)
and I took my results.
*drum rolls* Nah, it's not 4.0 (means perfection) . It's something out of my expectations.
In despair, I've been miserable and gloomy.
As time goes by, I know I need to be strong and keep holding on.
Thanks for the support from my friends and family, especially my daddy and my mummy, I love both of you so much. Thanks for not giving up on me and thank you for understanding that I've tried my best. (ya know I'm not genius)
Finally, the SECOND HARDEST EXAM IN THE WORLD, I beat you! :D
So it's time for me to move on with my life trying my luck to enroll into the course I want and the university that I want.
Wish me luck!

So, now 's the AFTER-EXAMS-DAYS.
Well, I had lots of fun partying and enjoying every bits of my life.
Although there's ups and downs, but life is meant to be like that, or else what 's life without all these? :)
So, I went to work , and everybody else too. No time to gather together except for Chinese New Year! but pictures is still not up yet. (been busy tho)
And, I've been wanted to go travel before my uni life starts.
So,one day, I got so excited, and I book a flight ticket to London, United Kingdom.
It's a 16 days trip with my mum.
Well, we travelled to Cambridge,and then London and fly to Paris, France. Then to Oxford, Bath, Stonehenge. And then fly to Edinburgh and Aberdeen located in Scotland.
We never manage to go to Barcelona or Manchester.
It's a wonderful trip that I ever had although it's bitterly cold, like I have to wear several layers of clothes with a coat and my boots on.
At least, it's a special experience to have.
There are so much to learn in UK.
I wish to go there again. Bonjour!

After I came back from UK, I fell sick. I had high fever the next day and jet lags as usual.
Sick for 1 week, finally. I get back to work and continue my life again.
It was boring, frankly but I was tired to go out.
Well, and then meeting up with friends, go to colleges and university for enquiries.
Music is my life too! :D
Went to party (Thank God) It only feels like my life is back!
*dance all night*

Having them in my life is a bliss. You know who you are. :)
Thank you for being a part of my life.
Shall write soon again.
I have to sleep, my back is hurting me.
See you soon!

*Just forget about the world, we are young tonight. 

Next post coming up : This is insanely addictive. * 

1 month left

There's still a month left to the MAJOR STPM EXAMINATIONS.
Have to, MUST get good results.
Focus your strength and energy into what you do best and approach every challenge with determination.


Keep holding on. <3