Tuesday, June 28, 2011

原點

好久没写部落格了。
突然想写下心情,又不敢放在twitter和facebook。
最近生活过得好,托我父母的关心及照顾。
虽然在学校很忙,在学习方面又很差,又想崩溃了,但很想谢谢我最好最好的朋友。
Lisa Lok,Jie Yan,Emily,Celine,
谢谢你们,每天都这么帮助我,有你们在身边,有你们作我的朋友,我真的很高兴。:D
今天是星期二,已经是三个月又六天了,只有我傻傻地从第一天慢慢在算着我们的开始。
我们俩走在一起,感觉上只有我一个人在走着走着,你走得好快,我一直追呀追呀,追到我已不知道你已经停了。你说你累了,再也没办法陪我走下去,要我再找第二个陪我走下去。
你就这样放弃了我,也放弃了这段感情.
我们经历了这么多,最后还是回到了原点。
我想给你幸福,却走不进你的世界 。我想用我的全世界来换取一张通往你的世界的入场券,不过,那只不过是我的一厢情愿而已。我的世界,你不在乎;你的世界,我被驱逐。我真的喜欢你,闭上眼,以为我能忘记,但流下的眼泪,却没有骗到自己。
每天我都会想今天会不会像昨天这样的开心?
以为抱着一丝的希望都可以换来你的关心,你的开心,
但每次总有彻底的失望。
以为这一切,我觉得是有可能的,以为这只是暂时的痛苦,原来失望有这么的痛,这么的伤人。
原来是我自己一厢情愿,你根本都不在乎。
还是我想太多了。
我还是不习惯这个痛,每天要经历的痛。
还是要笑着过着每一天,好让你觉得安心。
很傻,其实都知道你都不在乎了,我还抱着希望,因为我在你眼神里看到我。看到不同的东西。
所以每次我都觉得很安心,真的以为你还在我的身边。
我真的不懂你,不知道你到底在想什么。
好想很想跑到你的脑里心里看看到底里面藏了什么不能说的秘密。
从来都没试过这样爱一个人的感觉,为什么你就是这样与众不同?
为什么我就不能放你走?
我真的很讨厌你,又很爱你。好矛盾哦。
算了吧,你开心就好。

在爱情没开始以前,你永远想象不出会那样地爱一个人;在爱情没结束以前,你永远想象不出那样的爱也会消失;在爱情被忘却以前,你永远想象不出那样刻骨铭心的爱也会只留淡淡痕迹;在爱情重新开始以前,你永远想象不出还能再一次找到那样的爱情。

男人对女人的伤害,不一定是他爱上了别人,而是他在她有所期待的时候让她失望,在她脆弱的时候没有给她应有的安慰。

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

The '' study'' day

It was raining cats and dogs like hell in the wee of hours!
I woke up by the thunder and lightning,not the alarm clock.
I woke up early and get prepare.
Since he wanna go out early,so decided to go to McD for Breakfast!
I so loooooooooooooong time didn't have McD.
I had Sausage McMuffin+ Hash Brown + A cup of tea. HAVING HERE PLEASE!
Then,went to school as usual today.
Our MUET Teacher finally come into the class today.
Pn. Sharifah. :)
She's beautiful yet fierce.
She's like a cat woman,there's something in her eyes that can kill you!
Today,I did my job to try to keep quiet and do my work.
I have to study hard from now on. :) seeing everybody is like study kaki in the class.
Went back home after school.
Had a wonderful lunch, and playing session with Cookie boy. :P
nice delicious orange juice right! Naughty. *hugg*
Went for a dental appointment at 3 o'clock.
It's raining heavily again,like tornado. The thunder strikes the area,and that's scare me.
Later on,I went to BSD to do some stuffs. Miss everything there..
Go HOME!

Today is a good day overall for me.
Nothing brings me down and I feel okay.
I learn not to turn around anymore.
I learn not to be jealous and complain.
I learn to let go bits by bits and wait.
It's funny how she ask me about me and you.
I was excited yet speechless.
Is it me or is it you?
It's amazing how you make me laugh.
Because it's hard to see you did that.
Hold me tight,don't ever let me go.

This is the picture of today!

Monday, April 18, 2011

I'm back!

I'm finally back.
The sunshine,happy-go-lucky girl is back.
The 1 week sick is really suck!
I will never ever wanted to go back there again,I swear!
A new MON-day,a new week,new things,new resolution,new promises to myself.

To-do-list
  1. Catch up all the lessons in school.
  2. Clean up my room.
  3. Upload Penang trip photos to Facebook.
  4. Buy contact lens and make a spectacle. (or else I can't see! )
  5. Finish the work.
  6. Revise korean lesson.
  7. Eat eat eat until 50kg! (I've lost weight)
I think that's all for now. I would continue if I have more. :)
Mission starts now!

Life has so many obstacles throughout the journey.
We must not be giving up,
sighing all the way,
nor crying out loud.
Keep your head up high,
have faith in yourself,
believe it in,
close your eyes,
and take a deep breathe,
soon,
you know you'll find confidence in yourself.

One must not complain,
for thou have many arguments.
One must not sad,
for thou have waste much time.
One must not jealous,
for thou have hatred for the rest of your life.
One must not compare,
for thou have no perfection in life.
Smile,is a good way to start a life,a new day.
Think simply and life will be simple.


Saturday, April 16, 2011

Pain and itchy

I feel like blogging again. I'm now feeling quite okay already.
Just now,my mum touched my forehead,and its burning. like 40 degree celcius.
And I kept sleeping and sleeping,because I'm so dizzy and headache.
Then I had dinner and medicine.
I nearly fall down when going upstairs. LOL.
I kept changing clothes for several times.
Throat damn pain while I drink water. :(
Anyway,gotta eat fever med 4 hours once.
*tick tock tick tock tick tock*

Friday, April 15, 2011

Sick for 3 days

So,this is my sick look.
So,today I wanna talk about my sick experience.
I didn't expect that my fever will be off and on for freaking 3 days!
Last time,when I was having my fever,I used to have a panadol and sleep for a night,and I will be completely recover the next day.
But not this time.
The question is,how do I get sick?
This has to rewind back to Tuesday night.
I wear shorts to sleep and catch cold the next rainy morning.
I didn't take my cardigan to school,ended up having slight fever in school.
So this is how I got my fever.
I've been lying down on the bed for hours and hours.
The first 2 days,I look like a zombie.
And the third day is the worst one.
But luckily,mum brought me to the doctor.
The doctor gave me a heavy dose of Antibiotic, Paracetamol, cough syrup, Sore throat med.
Damn,I skipped a lot of classes. :( I scare cannot catch up.
i must recover faster! :D