她说无所谓。

What have I done wrong?

Sometimes I couldn't understand what are you thinking. 

I know you have stress and pressure and busy and sometimes disappointed with a lot of things. 

That's why I tolerate,and have patience with you.

I try not to argue with you,but you keep bringing things up. 

I have my own ways to do my things, clean up my room, arrange my things. 

I arranged and then you said I show faces. 

My face is like that, what you expect?

I'm sorry.

I'm not like supermodel or joker or clown that always have a smile on my face.

Then you said I've changed that I'm not close to you anymore, that I'm cold to you.

You are not a failure, but I am. 

I failed to make you happy, I failed to do whatever you want me to do.

I'm not perfect.

I know I have been closing myself in the room, and seldom have interactions with you. 

I'm sorry.

I know I'm not used to be who I am or who you want me to be. 

I lost appetite, I slim down, I got hunchback, I got sharp face, I look so weak.

It's not because of the relationship I get into, or anything that has to do with you.

It's just that, I lost my appetite, and I don't feel like eating.

That's it. 

I guess my life changed a lot when I enrolled into Form 6.

Yes, I lost appetite ever since that. 

Stress, Pressure, Tired.

I know everyone is going through that,

I know you going to say that, ''other people also can go through this tough life, I also can go through that.''

''It's gonna be okay, everything's gonna be alright. ''

You know what?

That's what I keep telling myself every single minute, every single day. 

I've been strong for too long.

I've been heartbroken.

I fell, and I stood up back again.

Just for you. 

I know I can't disappoint you like he did. 

I know I am the only hope that you have.

I know you love me.

I know you care for me.

I know. 

It has been tough for me.

I don't wanna complain, I keep it to myself always.

Because I don't want you to worry about me.

I know you have a lot of things to worry. 

I enrolled into form 6 and I go to school everyday, facing the same people, the same shit.

I did my homework, I attend curricular activities, events, become photographer of the school magazine,met new friends, discipline. 

That's what you want me to go through, right?

I did everything just for you.

You never ask me what I want.

You just want me to do what you want me to do. 

If that's what makes you happy, I will do it even though I'm not happy.

' Fake smile hide the real tears.' 

I will be happy.

I will be alright.

I will smile.

I know you love me,

I love you too. 

I'm sorry.

My blog is so dead.

Anyway, ignore the '' Eff you,Botox.''
I have done my Botox presentation finally.
I was kinda nervous, hands are shaking, legs are trembling, but i managed to present what I want to say fast and quick.
Maybe there's a time that I mumbled and don't know what I was talking about.
But anyway, it's OVER! :D

Talking about my blog, I abandoned it for a long time, I'm so sorry!
I've been so busy, and I don't know what to say anymore.
TIRED.

Today, I'm gonna blog about my Chinese New Year.
This is the year of Dragon. So who's up for a Dragon pet? :p
This CNY is boring.
I've been sleeping on the first day of CNY.
But the night before was awesome. :)
My cousins and I and b went out for late night movie at e@curve after reunion dinner.
The show is at 10pm, boyf fetch us there. :)
We watched…in 3D!

I rate the movie as 3/5. 

Yes, Kate Beckinsale is cool, sexy, awesome. 

She's called Selene in the movie. 

When human forces discover the existence of the Vampire and Lycan clans, a war to eradicate both species commences. The vampire warrioress Selene leads the battle against humankind.

It was a great movie, I guess there's part two! 

CNY 1st DAY.

Our relatives' friends came visit us and spent their CNY with us. :)

We went out for a movie again at night. 

The show started at 11.45pm. :) 

This time, we were going to watch Journey 2 : The Mysterious Island. in 3D! 

I rate this movie as 4/5! :D

Dwayne Johnson is hawt. I gave a credit to him. :)

Young Sean Anderson (Josh Hutcherson, reprising his role from the first film) receives a coded distress signal from a mysterious island where no island should exist. It's a place of strange life forms, mountains of gold, deadly volcanoes, and more than one astonishing secret. Unable to stop him from going, Sean's new stepfather, Hank (Dwayne Johnson), joins the quest. Together with a helicopter pilot (Luis Guzman) and his beautiful, strong-willed daughter (Vanessa Hudgens), they set out to find the island, rescue its lone inhabitant and escape before seismic shockwaves force the island under the sea and bury its treasures forever. 

I love the helicopter pilot. He is funny and hilarious. :)

CNY 2nd DAY

Today my family and I and all of us went to Pavilion for shopping and lunch! :D

We had lunch at Ding Tai Fung. 

I miss my Xiu Long Bao! :D

We have fun sharing with everyone and passing the dish to each other. :) 

And here we go, shopping time! 

My cousin bought a lot of stuffs, from Paul Frank, DC Superheroes. 

I wanted to buy a handbag from Paul Frank, but it was too expensive. 

It was rm400. NO DISCOUNT. :( 

That was sad, but never mind. 

So we had fun, but tired walking. 

We went back home, I was lost in KL, keep missing turns. 

but I managed to reach home safely. 

CNY 3RD DAY

Today I brought my cousins to One Utama to shop and have Sushi Zanmai as our dinner.

We queue up for 1 hour but thank god that Temple Run is there for us. :p 

We had Frap Chocolate Cream Chip after our dinner. :p 

And we bought a tumbler! 

Will soon update the pictures on the next post. :)

CNY 4TH DAY

My relatives and my relatives' friends are going home already.

Had lunch at home already and took some polaroid pictures as memories. :)

Then we sent them to the airport and went home. 

CNY 5th DAY

Today is my open house ! 

I woke up early and went to the market for grocery shopping.

I reached home and started to take out all the tables and chairs. 

I even went out to buy noodles, tomyam paste and gas! 

Rushed shower and went to visit Jie Yan's house with Emily, Derek and Sin Nee.

Then come back and people started to reached around 6.30pm. 

It was full and we started to eat! :D

no pictures were taken. :(

After eating, all went to gamble, I just started to eat. :p 

I played In Between with B they all, lost some. 

It was heartbroken! *high 5 to Jen Weng* 

It was a great night, everyone was happy! :D 

Thank you guys for coming. 

CNY 6th DAY

As for today, I went to visit my aunty. 

Came back, nothing to do. So I played Temple Run and set a new highscore! :D

So till then. 

Finally, I've updated my blog. 

Do I had you from a Hello? :)