她说无所谓。

What have I done wrong?

Sometimes I couldn't understand what are you thinking. 

I know you have stress and pressure and busy and sometimes disappointed with a lot of things. 

That's why I tolerate,and have patience with you.

I try not to argue with you,but you keep bringing things up. 

I have my own ways to do my things, clean up my room, arrange my things. 

I arranged and then you said I show faces. 

My face is like that, what you expect?

I'm sorry.

I'm not like supermodel or joker or clown that always have a smile on my face.

Then you said I've changed that I'm not close to you anymore, that I'm cold to you.

You are not a failure, but I am. 

I failed to make you happy, I failed to do whatever you want me to do.

I'm not perfect.

I know I have been closing myself in the room, and seldom have interactions with you. 

I'm sorry.

I know I'm not used to be who I am or who you want me to be. 

I lost appetite, I slim down, I got hunchback, I got sharp face, I look so weak.

It's not because of the relationship I get into, or anything that has to do with you.

It's just that, I lost my appetite, and I don't feel like eating.

That's it. 

I guess my life changed a lot when I enrolled into Form 6.

Yes, I lost appetite ever since that. 

Stress, Pressure, Tired.

I know everyone is going through that,

I know you going to say that, ''other people also can go through this tough life, I also can go through that.''

''It's gonna be okay, everything's gonna be alright. ''

You know what?

That's what I keep telling myself every single minute, every single day. 

I've been strong for too long.

I've been heartbroken.

I fell, and I stood up back again.

Just for you. 

I know I can't disappoint you like he did. 

I know I am the only hope that you have.

I know you love me.

I know you care for me.

I know. 

It has been tough for me.

I don't wanna complain, I keep it to myself always.

Because I don't want you to worry about me.

I know you have a lot of things to worry. 

I enrolled into form 6 and I go to school everyday, facing the same people, the same shit.

I did my homework, I attend curricular activities, events, become photographer of the school magazine,met new friends, discipline. 

That's what you want me to go through, right?

I did everything just for you.

You never ask me what I want.

You just want me to do what you want me to do. 

If that's what makes you happy, I will do it even though I'm not happy.

' Fake smile hide the real tears.' 

I will be happy.

I will be alright.

I will smile.

I know you love me,

I love you too. 

I'm sorry.