1 month left

There's still a month left to the MAJOR STPM EXAMINATIONS.
Have to, MUST get good results.
Focus your strength and energy into what you do best and approach every challenge with determination.


Keep holding on. <3

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(#np It Will Rain)

你说的话让我三思。

我足足两天想了又想，还是想不通

到底我做的决定是对的还是错的

难道这样有错吗？

难道那样有错吗？

难道我开心不是一件好事吗？

不但没有顾虑我的感受，

还没有支持我，

就随便判断是我的错。

这样有道理吗？

为什么要出去的时候，都用那个眼神和语气这样跟我说话？

我会很反感，

觉得没有安全感

觉得你在控制着我

觉得你从来都不相信我。

我知道我说了谎，

做错了事情。

难道这样就可以代表你可以这样永远不尝试相信我吗？

每次都问东问西，

不相信我

我留在这有什么用

我要出去，我要自由。

Love.

Happy 8-months anniversary dear!

It's not only 8 months, it feel like years already. 

I'm so glad and thankful that we are together,here and always.

With you, I feel free and crazy like no one can stop me.

I feel safe with you.

but sometimes it could be dangerous though!

Tickle war! *

That could make us laugh like hyper!

HAHA!

All these happy moments, I could never forget at all.

:)

Baby,thank you for being there for me when I feel useless at time.

Thank you for being my best friend and my lover.

Thank you for the support and the encouragement.

Thank you for making me feel appreciated.

Thank you for loving me.

I love you! 

世界上最美妙的一件事是

當你擁抱一個你愛的人
他竟然把你抱得更緊。

My mind

Saturday

It's quite late now,and I'm still here listening to Sara Bareilles Gravity.

All I was thinking is you, all about you, all about us. 

It's a miracle, a fate that brought us back together.

Your faith in yourself has made God touched and lead me back to you.

I'll never get bored of our love story since 3 or 4 years back till now.

We met each other through msn chat and I still remember that you're the one who introduced Big Bang's songs to me and that's how it started?

Years and years, you found me,still. 

You never forget me,

You never leave me.

You protect me,

You made me feel safe and secure,

You love me for who I am.

.

I always wonder how we can make it through till now.

Communication, Tolerate, Love. 

Understanding.

You know me better than anyone else.

You know what I want to say,

You know what's my next move,

You always know what's on my mind.

You. Always. Know.

.

Being with you is the happiest thing in my life.

Hands of yours that are big and warm take my hands.

Great broad shoulder I like. 

The messy hair I love to mess with.

The nose that I always pinch.

The lips that always found mine perfectly.

Everything.

.

I know we will be having a lot of obstacles in our journey.

3 years. 

I am afraid to be apart from you.

Different timezone, different place, different.

but hey! We are under the same sky! 

There's nothing to worry about, I tell myself.

I thought I was strong,

but I still break down. 

Try not to think anymore,

Try to ignore every possibilities and impossibilities.

B, I tried. 

I just wanna hug you tight everytime to make sure that you're beside me and I'm not dreaming.

I want to feel you here with me.

I want to remember everything that I do with you, every conversation we had,every calls we made,

every smile we had,

every laughter we made,

every little small arguments,

every silly photo-taking session,

our songs,

our everything.

.

Baby bummy boy, I'm just...afraid to lose you.

B,

.

Forever in Love

Love is a river that flows through the soul straight to the heart of mare
And our love forever lives deep in the palm of God's hands

Just as my heart woke, it beat for you
Just as my mouth spoke, it spoke for you

Forever in love
Forever in love with you


Forever is not some measure of time
Don't matter how long you live
It's a promise where one, even after we're gone
'Til nothing on earth will exist


Just as my eyes saw, I saw you
Just as my legs walked, I followed you


Just as my heart beat, I prayed for you
I answered I will always wait for you.

Dear B,
                    Happy 7-month anniversary! :3

It's 20th of June,Wednesday. It has been 7 months since we are together.
It seems like more than 7 months already.
I'll never forget how you confess your love to me and ask me to be your girlfriend on 20.11.2011. :)
HAHAHA! Sweet and funny memories with you.
Thank you baby for making me happy in my life.
Thank you that you are always being patient with me and tolerate with me all the time.
I know I have temper, and I've been always trying to be patient. :)
Thank you for making me smile.
If you happy, I will happy k!
But if I'm not happy, you cannot be unhappy. Promise?
I don't want to see you sad. I want to see you as cute as a bum. My Bum. :3
I'm sorry if I have made any mistakes.
I know I have said it a lot of times. But I just want to say it again.
I'm sorry and please forgive me. :)
*hugs*
I love you and I hope together, me and you, we are more stronger than ever. :)
Happy 7 months anniversary! :D

Holiday

It's all about shopping shopping SHOPPING! :D
I've been going to One Utama on Saturday then yesterday on Monday.
I'm so addicted to all the sales having in the shops! Topshop, Topman, Padini , Vincci and much more!
Damn, I've spent too much. Gotta cut down a little bit.
It's so tempting to go out. Stay at home doing nothing is kinda boring.
Eat,Sleep,Twitter,Sleep.
So have to update my blog for awhile.
Since I have so much time doing this, so I'll just update for the months that I was not here.
During these months, I've been busy studying for the Mid-term examinations. It's a 2 weeks duration.
I get so stressed up and nervous.
There are so many words and sentences and chapters and subjects need to be memorized, especially Biology.
Each day one paper, and it's killing me.
There's still not enough time to start study even it's 1 month earlier.
After trials, then it's gonna be trials coming up. and then STPM.
Stress!
Anyway after mid-term, I went shopping and have Starbucks with dear.
Then on Friday, I skipped school and went to Genting! :D
Despite of playing outdoor theme park, I played in indoor theme park just to win all the tickets.
I'm so excited when I saw all the tickets coming out from the game machine.
Spent rm50 to play that game and ended up getting a gift which is rm9.50.
No next time already, I promise!
And since all the food are so expensive, I had McDonald Ayam Goreng. :)
I have bought the movie tickets to watch Men In Black 3!
Since we have so much time before the movies, we went to play 3 set games of pool and 2 games of bowling.
And then we went to the movies and it's in 3D!
After then, we had Starbucks coffee and a donut and a slice of cake as our supper before we head back to our hotel. :)
It's the starting of the holiday and I'm already so relaxed and fresh.
A good sign to have a holiday, but a bad sign for the money that I've spent.
Anyway, I have one of my best time in my life and there's so much more coming up! :D
I just can't wait and I'm looking forward to all of them. :)

我只是做回我自己。
难道有错吗？
难道我要跟着你的心情而过我的生活吗？
这样根本就没有意义。
你这么讨厌我。
我很讨厌我自己为什么这么介意你对我的看法。
我后悔有你这个朋友。

Big Bang!

I'm addicted to Big Bang's 5th Mini Album ' ALIVE' nao! :D

and this! :D

and absolutely this! Boom Shakalaka! :D

Awesome album. Awesome songs. :)
I want to go to their concert! <3

＃3

为什么要哭啊。

傻瓜。

哭都沒有用，要坚强起来。

没有人会陪谁到永远。

跌倒了要自己站起来，不要依赖别人。

要加油。要努力靠自己。

Now that I've found you

You mean everything to me , dear. 

I see you in my thoughts, 

I hear you in my sleep, 

and now that I've found you.

And I've got you. 

To-do lists for March!

1. Finish up my research project and presentation.
2. Do MATHS practice. 
3. Finish up learning Girls Generation - The Boys dance steps. 
4. Read finish the Biology Volume 1. 
5. Lose weight till 45kg! 
6. Cut my hair. (what kind of hairstyles then? )

I guess that's enough for March. Will update soon if I have anything to add. :p 

＃2

为什么。我很累，你知道吗？
我忍。

#1

我只是希望当我回来的时候有个肩膀依靠着，可是却换来我要依靠我自己。

Break down.

People cry, not because they're weak. It's because they've been strong for too long.

Think too much nonsense makes me lost in the other world.

Today, left two more days to the exams.
Stupid deductive geometry, unfinished-reading Biology..
There's a lot to read, but no time anymore.
I'm so tired, everyone is tired.
Thinking back that, why the hell we study Form 6?
Some of them don't know why, they just enroll into Form 6 for the sake of studying only.
Or don't know what to do in the future.
Or don't know what am I doing at all.
I'm lost in this world.
I got crazy today, and laugh till I cried.
Break down.
Stress, Tension. And it's just the first test.
What if is the STPM?
I guess, I will be in the Mental Problem Hospital ward lying down and laugh at myself.
SIAO, CRAZY,MAD, INSANE.
This life is hard, and fucked up.
I don't know what I'm doing for.
Tears keep rolling down and down and down, even wet Lisa's shirt.
Lisa sang 'Safe and Sound' to me. :") it makes me cry more.
Thanks for your shoulders, Lisa.
'Crying isn't helpful.' Maybe it's true.
Heart sinked down to the hell.
You never know how much I needed you.

“She was a girl who knew how to be happy even when she was sad. And that’s important—you know ”
― Marilyn Monroe

她说无所谓。

What have I done wrong?

Sometimes I couldn't understand what are you thinking. 

I know you have stress and pressure and busy and sometimes disappointed with a lot of things. 

That's why I tolerate,and have patience with you.

I try not to argue with you,but you keep bringing things up. 

I have my own ways to do my things, clean up my room, arrange my things. 

I arranged and then you said I show faces. 

My face is like that, what you expect?

I'm sorry.

I'm not like supermodel or joker or clown that always have a smile on my face.

Then you said I've changed that I'm not close to you anymore, that I'm cold to you.

You are not a failure, but I am. 

I failed to make you happy, I failed to do whatever you want me to do.

I'm not perfect.

I know I have been closing myself in the room, and seldom have interactions with you. 

I'm sorry.

I know I'm not used to be who I am or who you want me to be. 

I lost appetite, I slim down, I got hunchback, I got sharp face, I look so weak.

It's not because of the relationship I get into, or anything that has to do with you.

It's just that, I lost my appetite, and I don't feel like eating.

That's it. 

I guess my life changed a lot when I enrolled into Form 6.

Yes, I lost appetite ever since that. 

Stress, Pressure, Tired.

I know everyone is going through that,

I know you going to say that, ''other people also can go through this tough life, I also can go through that.''

''It's gonna be okay, everything's gonna be alright. ''

You know what?

That's what I keep telling myself every single minute, every single day. 

I've been strong for too long.

I've been heartbroken.

I fell, and I stood up back again.

Just for you. 

I know I can't disappoint you like he did. 

I know I am the only hope that you have.

I know you love me.

I know you care for me.

I know. 

It has been tough for me.

I don't wanna complain, I keep it to myself always.

Because I don't want you to worry about me.

I know you have a lot of things to worry. 

I enrolled into form 6 and I go to school everyday, facing the same people, the same shit.

I did my homework, I attend curricular activities, events, become photographer of the school magazine,met new friends, discipline. 

That's what you want me to go through, right?

I did everything just for you.

You never ask me what I want.

You just want me to do what you want me to do. 

If that's what makes you happy, I will do it even though I'm not happy.

' Fake smile hide the real tears.' 

I will be happy.

I will be alright.

I will smile.

I know you love me,

I love you too. 

I'm sorry.

My blog is so dead.

Anyway, ignore the '' Eff you,Botox.''
I have done my Botox presentation finally.
I was kinda nervous, hands are shaking, legs are trembling, but i managed to present what I want to say fast and quick.
Maybe there's a time that I mumbled and don't know what I was talking about.
But anyway, it's OVER! :D

Talking about my blog, I abandoned it for a long time, I'm so sorry!
I've been so busy, and I don't know what to say anymore.
TIRED.

Today, I'm gonna blog about my Chinese New Year.
This is the year of Dragon. So who's up for a Dragon pet? :p
This CNY is boring.
I've been sleeping on the first day of CNY.
But the night before was awesome. :)
My cousins and I and b went out for late night movie at e@curve after reunion dinner.
The show is at 10pm, boyf fetch us there. :)
We watched…in 3D!

I rate the movie as 3/5. 

Yes, Kate Beckinsale is cool, sexy, awesome. 

She's called Selene in the movie. 

When human forces discover the existence of the Vampire and Lycan clans, a war to eradicate both species commences. The vampire warrioress Selene leads the battle against humankind.

It was a great movie, I guess there's part two! 

CNY 1st DAY.

Our relatives' friends came visit us and spent their CNY with us. :)

We went out for a movie again at night. 

The show started at 11.45pm. :) 

This time, we were going to watch Journey 2 : The Mysterious Island. in 3D! 

I rate this movie as 4/5! :D

Dwayne Johnson is hawt. I gave a credit to him. :)

Young Sean Anderson (Josh Hutcherson, reprising his role from the first film) receives a coded distress signal from a mysterious island where no island should exist. It's a place of strange life forms, mountains of gold, deadly volcanoes, and more than one astonishing secret. Unable to stop him from going, Sean's new stepfather, Hank (Dwayne Johnson), joins the quest. Together with a helicopter pilot (Luis Guzman) and his beautiful, strong-willed daughter (Vanessa Hudgens), they set out to find the island, rescue its lone inhabitant and escape before seismic shockwaves force the island under the sea and bury its treasures forever. 

I love the helicopter pilot. He is funny and hilarious. :)

CNY 2nd DAY

Today my family and I and all of us went to Pavilion for shopping and lunch! :D

We had lunch at Ding Tai Fung. 

I miss my Xiu Long Bao! :D

We have fun sharing with everyone and passing the dish to each other. :) 

And here we go, shopping time! 

My cousin bought a lot of stuffs, from Paul Frank, DC Superheroes. 

I wanted to buy a handbag from Paul Frank, but it was too expensive. 

It was rm400. NO DISCOUNT. :( 

That was sad, but never mind. 

So we had fun, but tired walking. 

We went back home, I was lost in KL, keep missing turns. 

but I managed to reach home safely. 

CNY 3RD DAY

Today I brought my cousins to One Utama to shop and have Sushi Zanmai as our dinner.

We queue up for 1 hour but thank god that Temple Run is there for us. :p 

We had Frap Chocolate Cream Chip after our dinner. :p 

And we bought a tumbler! 

Will soon update the pictures on the next post. :)

CNY 4TH DAY

My relatives and my relatives' friends are going home already.

Had lunch at home already and took some polaroid pictures as memories. :)

Then we sent them to the airport and went home. 

CNY 5th DAY

Today is my open house ! 

I woke up early and went to the market for grocery shopping.

I reached home and started to take out all the tables and chairs. 

I even went out to buy noodles, tomyam paste and gas! 

Rushed shower and went to visit Jie Yan's house with Emily, Derek and Sin Nee.

Then come back and people started to reached around 6.30pm. 

It was full and we started to eat! :D

no pictures were taken. :(

After eating, all went to gamble, I just started to eat. :p 

I played In Between with B they all, lost some. 

It was heartbroken! *high 5 to Jen Weng* 

It was a great night, everyone was happy! :D 

Thank you guys for coming. 

CNY 6th DAY

As for today, I went to visit my aunty. 

Came back, nothing to do. So I played Temple Run and set a new highscore! :D

So till then. 

Finally, I've updated my blog. 

Do I had you from a Hello? :)